Tis Yule eve. Tomorrow brings the rebirth of the Sun God and is also the time we celebrate the change of the Goddess from Crone to Maiden. Thankfully we don't live in a time where the weather affects us as much as it did in the long ago, that is unless you currently live in Western Washington where we are still cleaning up after 70+ MPH winds from last week which knocked out power to over 1 million homes. Tomorrow was a very special day in years gone by. People knew that winter was half over and that with the increasing light they would be warmer and food could be planted soon.
My Holiday wish for you all is that you get to spend it with friends and family celebrating life and challenges you have overcome.
May the returning light bring with it warmth and happiness to every aspect of your life.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
40 really is just like 39
Can you imagine my surprise?
Yes 40 is very much like 39, at least for me so far and after just 1 month. Sadly I must admit to still smoking. I had a few weeks where I was smoking much less but in the last couple of weeks it has started creeping up again. I'm still committed to quitting it just isn't going as I had planned. Oh for the folly of youth.
I can't believe the year is almost over and we are smack in the middle of the Holiday season. Somehow I have managed to get at least half of my Holiday shopping done already, much earlier then previous years. Maybe 40 is better then 39.
At least with this post I'm back on the blogging roll again. More posts soon.
Best wishes
Yes 40 is very much like 39, at least for me so far and after just 1 month. Sadly I must admit to still smoking. I had a few weeks where I was smoking much less but in the last couple of weeks it has started creeping up again. I'm still committed to quitting it just isn't going as I had planned. Oh for the folly of youth.
I can't believe the year is almost over and we are smack in the middle of the Holiday season. Somehow I have managed to get at least half of my Holiday shopping done already, much earlier then previous years. Maybe 40 is better then 39.
At least with this post I'm back on the blogging roll again. More posts soon.
Best wishes
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Well somehow I made it this far
Oh My Goddess!!!
Somehow, regardless of how I have abused my body for many years, I have made it to 40. To celebrate I have finally given up smoking. This is day one but I REFUSE to have another cigarette no matter how miserable I am or how bitchy I become with those around me. : )
It's insane to think I'm 40, that's like 14600 days. I haven't updated my self image since about 22. Forty years old!! I am in utter disbelief. I must say it's been an incredible run so far. Here are some highlights....
Visiting Italy, Ethiopia, Sri Lanka, Argentina, Brazil, Egypt, Chile, Mexico, Malta, France, Spain, Germany, Washington DC, Los Angeles, Seattle, Las Vegas, Yellowstone, Maine, Massachusetts, Florida . I've worked in many different industries, Advertising, Environmental Consulting, NOAA, Financial Investments. I've driven across the country in 45 hours. I've experience so many highs and lows. I have loved and been loved. I have tried to truly live and not be a spectator in life. I believe that we learn and experience more from our mistakes and taking risks then by playing it safe.
Beyond all that I have seen and done so far my friends and family are the greatest things on this planet and in my life. I have no idea what I have done to deserve such incredible relationships but they have made the whole journey possible and rewarding. My heartfelt thanks to each and every one of the special people in my life.
Many thanks to all of you and I look forward to our journeys yet to come!
XXOO,
LCDSeattle
Somehow, regardless of how I have abused my body for many years, I have made it to 40. To celebrate I have finally given up smoking. This is day one but I REFUSE to have another cigarette no matter how miserable I am or how bitchy I become with those around me. : )
It's insane to think I'm 40, that's like 14600 days. I haven't updated my self image since about 22. Forty years old!! I am in utter disbelief. I must say it's been an incredible run so far. Here are some highlights....
Visiting Italy, Ethiopia, Sri Lanka, Argentina, Brazil, Egypt, Chile, Mexico, Malta, France, Spain, Germany, Washington DC, Los Angeles, Seattle, Las Vegas, Yellowstone, Maine, Massachusetts, Florida . I've worked in many different industries, Advertising, Environmental Consulting, NOAA, Financial Investments. I've driven across the country in 45 hours. I've experience so many highs and lows. I have loved and been loved. I have tried to truly live and not be a spectator in life. I believe that we learn and experience more from our mistakes and taking risks then by playing it safe.
Beyond all that I have seen and done so far my friends and family are the greatest things on this planet and in my life. I have no idea what I have done to deserve such incredible relationships but they have made the whole journey possible and rewarding. My heartfelt thanks to each and every one of the special people in my life.
Many thanks to all of you and I look forward to our journeys yet to come!
XXOO,
LCDSeattle
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Happy New Year
It's Samhain, Celtic New Year. The coven got together this past weekend and marked the occasion in our typical party style. This marks the end of our third year together and as is our custom we all agreed to another year together.
Today is the 364th day of my 39th year here, just one more day in my thirties. It's a little crazy to think I've been around for 40 years. I can't say I have a problem with my age, it's just amazing how fast the time has gone and how much faster the years go as one gets older.
Best New Year Wishes to all of my lovely readers,
LCDSeattle
Today is the 364th day of my 39th year here, just one more day in my thirties. It's a little crazy to think I've been around for 40 years. I can't say I have a problem with my age, it's just amazing how fast the time has gone and how much faster the years go as one gets older.
Best New Year Wishes to all of my lovely readers,
LCDSeattle
Friday, October 20, 2006
Meets or exceeds expectations
I'm not sure how each and every time but somehow my trips to Vegas always seem near perfect. If only I could win more. Alas the wondrous resorts can't be built without the faithful making the pilgrimage and donating to the Wonder in the Desert.
Specific Highlights:
1) The Mirage. I hadn't stayed there before so I was really looking forward to it. The room was very nice and larger then many of the other rooms I've stayed in on the strip. At 20 years it is getting a little long in the tooth, for Vegas, but still has a very special feel of understated glamour and opulence.
2) Winning $30 at the Wynn. Take that Steve!
3) Dinner at Gaylord. One of the best Indian meals I've ever had. (Thanks Mom and Dad).
4) All the personal time I got with my parents together and one on one. Things flowed really well. There were times when we were all together and I had time with each of them while the other was off on their on gambling fix.
5) Getting up in time to see the sun rise. I don't make a habit of being awake for a sunrise so it's really nice to catch one now and again and it is made even more special in the desert. I highly recommend it.
It's back to reality now and a few more gallons of water to get my body back to normal.
Specific Highlights:
1) The Mirage. I hadn't stayed there before so I was really looking forward to it. The room was very nice and larger then many of the other rooms I've stayed in on the strip. At 20 years it is getting a little long in the tooth, for Vegas, but still has a very special feel of understated glamour and opulence.
2) Winning $30 at the Wynn. Take that Steve!
3) Dinner at Gaylord. One of the best Indian meals I've ever had. (Thanks Mom and Dad).
4) All the personal time I got with my parents together and one on one. Things flowed really well. There were times when we were all together and I had time with each of them while the other was off on their on gambling fix.
5) Getting up in time to see the sun rise. I don't make a habit of being awake for a sunrise so it's really nice to catch one now and again and it is made even more special in the desert. I highly recommend it.
It's back to reality now and a few more gallons of water to get my body back to normal.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
National Coming Out Day!
Today is National Coming Out Day.
For some deranged reason I'm one of those crazy people that had so much fun coming out to my parents I had to do it twice. Please note the sarcastic tone of the last sentence. Coming out to one's parents is not easy even if the parents are as cool as mine.
Many years ago during a parental visit, they were between posts and spending some time with their son, it was time for me to make my declaration and bring everyone up to speed with what was going on. Although my heart was racing a million miles an hour it went well and my parents expressed their love and acceptance. Within a few days they were on their way to their next post overseas and although we always stayed in touch there wasn't any need to really discuss the "issue" and we all went on with our lives and somehow over time I simply forgot about the conversation. Don't ask me how I forgot, part of it I'm sure was that it just wasn't a BIG issue for my parents so they didn't need to bring it up and although it had gone well I didn't want to remember having to let my parents know that I was different, the family name wouldn't be passed on by me, that my life was going to have challenges and who knows what else.
Flash forward a couple of years when my mother and sister were in the area looking at colleges my sister might attend. We were coming back from Eastern Washington and my sister was asleep in the back seat of the car. It was time to let my mom know her son was gay. With sweaty palms and my heart yet again racing I let her know.
"Yes, we know. You already told us" was her response.
Complete shock and a flood of memories of the first time came to me in a flash. How could I have spent the last two or three days FREAKING out that I had to tell her, waiting for the right moment and worst of all wondering if everything would be OK.
Now, many years later, we can all laugh about it. Laughing about life is one of the greatest treasures I gained from my family, it seems to be a trait of ours and has served me well over the years.
If there are gays in your life that are out please thank them. Thank them for being true to themselves and being open about who they are. Our society will never truly accept homosexuals until we are all out of the closet living our lives openly. Those people that fear us must learn we are just like everyone else and that gender preference is no reason for fear and hatred. Being gay in our society is still a gigantic challenge and although over the last couple of decades we have made great strides in social and legal acceptance, gays are not yet equal members of society, gays are attacked, our relationships are not legally recognized and in some countries people are killed solely because of their sexual orientation. I have been blessed with friends and family that have embraced me 100% not all of us gays are so lucky.
My heartfelt thanks to my friends and family.
For some deranged reason I'm one of those crazy people that had so much fun coming out to my parents I had to do it twice. Please note the sarcastic tone of the last sentence. Coming out to one's parents is not easy even if the parents are as cool as mine.
Many years ago during a parental visit, they were between posts and spending some time with their son, it was time for me to make my declaration and bring everyone up to speed with what was going on. Although my heart was racing a million miles an hour it went well and my parents expressed their love and acceptance. Within a few days they were on their way to their next post overseas and although we always stayed in touch there wasn't any need to really discuss the "issue" and we all went on with our lives and somehow over time I simply forgot about the conversation. Don't ask me how I forgot, part of it I'm sure was that it just wasn't a BIG issue for my parents so they didn't need to bring it up and although it had gone well I didn't want to remember having to let my parents know that I was different, the family name wouldn't be passed on by me, that my life was going to have challenges and who knows what else.
Flash forward a couple of years when my mother and sister were in the area looking at colleges my sister might attend. We were coming back from Eastern Washington and my sister was asleep in the back seat of the car. It was time to let my mom know her son was gay. With sweaty palms and my heart yet again racing I let her know.
"Yes, we know. You already told us" was her response.
Complete shock and a flood of memories of the first time came to me in a flash. How could I have spent the last two or three days FREAKING out that I had to tell her, waiting for the right moment and worst of all wondering if everything would be OK.
Now, many years later, we can all laugh about it. Laughing about life is one of the greatest treasures I gained from my family, it seems to be a trait of ours and has served me well over the years.
If there are gays in your life that are out please thank them. Thank them for being true to themselves and being open about who they are. Our society will never truly accept homosexuals until we are all out of the closet living our lives openly. Those people that fear us must learn we are just like everyone else and that gender preference is no reason for fear and hatred. Being gay in our society is still a gigantic challenge and although over the last couple of decades we have made great strides in social and legal acceptance, gays are not yet equal members of society, gays are attacked, our relationships are not legally recognized and in some countries people are killed solely because of their sexual orientation. I have been blessed with friends and family that have embraced me 100% not all of us gays are so lucky.
My heartfelt thanks to my friends and family.
Monday, October 02, 2006
300 million
This month the United States population will hit 300 million. You can read more about this here.
15 days till Vegas!!!
I wonder if Vegas will continue to expand? Given the number of people in this country now I sure hope the Vegas resorts keep expanding. Nothing can ruin a Vegas trip like crowds. : )
15 days till Vegas!!!
I wonder if Vegas will continue to expand? Given the number of people in this country now I sure hope the Vegas resorts keep expanding. Nothing can ruin a Vegas trip like crowds. : )
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Newsweek is a tool of The Man
Let me cut right to the chase!
Let there be NO DOUBT the American media is being used by our government and all it takes is a look at the cover story on this weeks Newsweek.
Everywhere except this country the cover story is about the war in Afghanistan. What do you think Newsweek's most important story is for us? Annie Leibovitz! Don't get me wrong I like Annie's work but why does the rest of the world get information on how we are losing in Afghanistan and we get pretty pictures and a talented photographer?
You can check out the covers here. I'm not sure how long this link will be good for, I suspect it changes when a new issue comes out so I hope you are a regular reader. : )
Let there be NO DOUBT the American media is being used by our government and all it takes is a look at the cover story on this weeks Newsweek.
Everywhere except this country the cover story is about the war in Afghanistan. What do you think Newsweek's most important story is for us? Annie Leibovitz! Don't get me wrong I like Annie's work but why does the rest of the world get information on how we are losing in Afghanistan and we get pretty pictures and a talented photographer?
You can check out the covers here. I'm not sure how long this link will be good for, I suspect it changes when a new issue comes out so I hope you are a regular reader. : )
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
3 weeks from today
The VWP continues to countdown. In just 3 weeks from today I'll be checking into the Mirage. The excitement continues to build. Friends and family that have been through previous VWPs must dread the last couple of weeks because I become just a little too excited about my Vegas trips. In many ways I think that the build up is almost as exciting as the trip it's self.
Of all the trips I've taken to Vegas I've only hit it big once, at the Mirage playing Let it Ride. I can't wait to pop down at a table and see if the Mirage will bless me again with the ability to actually bring some money home after a Vegas trip. Although few things in life are as nice as buying drinks and nibbly bits of food for one's parents while claiming "let's let the Mirage pay for this round".
One of the great things about being born into the Davey family is acquiring a love of Indian food. One of the activities we have planned for this trip is a visit to Gaylord an Indian restaurant at the Rio. I'm hoping it's extra spicy as it can be difficult to find Indian restaurants that serve food to an authentic spice level. While I understand that could run a place out of business given this country's non-spicy food it makes it challenging to find good Indian food.
Ok, time to stop thinking about Vegas for a couple of hours at least.
Of all the trips I've taken to Vegas I've only hit it big once, at the Mirage playing Let it Ride. I can't wait to pop down at a table and see if the Mirage will bless me again with the ability to actually bring some money home after a Vegas trip. Although few things in life are as nice as buying drinks and nibbly bits of food for one's parents while claiming "let's let the Mirage pay for this round".
One of the great things about being born into the Davey family is acquiring a love of Indian food. One of the activities we have planned for this trip is a visit to Gaylord an Indian restaurant at the Rio. I'm hoping it's extra spicy as it can be difficult to find Indian restaurants that serve food to an authentic spice level. While I understand that could run a place out of business given this country's non-spicy food it makes it challenging to find good Indian food.
Ok, time to stop thinking about Vegas for a couple of hours at least.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Gay movies and culture
Over the weekend I saw a cute movie Touch of Pink. It's similar to The Wedding Banquet but with an Indian cultural touch instead of a Chinese one. What is interesting about these films and many "gay" films like The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert and To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar is the cultural and familial issues that arise for gays, their families and the general public.
This leads me to wonder what our films will be like in that wonderful future where being gay isn't something that creates such incredible friction between the two groups (gay/straight). Thankfully my relationship with my parents around my gender preference has seldom been an issue and when it has it was generally more an issue for me then for them. It has also created a few very funny moments in our lives.
A few years ago, at the end of my marriage, I went to my parents house, frequently where I go when I need shoulders to cry on. When I arrived to cry about love lost I was informed that they were expecting some out of town guests at some point that afternoon. We pasted the time with me railing against an unjust and crazy world and my parents were as supportive as ever. The phone rang and their visitors were double checking directions and were just a few blocks away. Thankfully I had moved past the zenith of the cathartic experience I needed them for and quickly moved into supporting the Host by getting hor'dourves and drinks ready for the soon to arrive guests.
When they arrived I made the proper chit chat to make them feel welcome and buy my mother a bit more time in the kitchen. One of the guests must have noticed my wedding ring, I had yet to remove it because it had only been a few days and although I was emotionally done just hadn't taken the ring off. I was a little shocked and lost for words when asked about my wife. ACK! Incorrect assumption and a topic I was not about to go into the status of things. I don't recall exactly what I said but did nothing to correct their misunderstanding. This was also my queue to leave. I observed the proper social etiquette and departed for my home.
Over lunch, if only I had stayed, one of the guests ask my mother about her daughter-in-law. Clearly I had not provided enough information. : ) To which my mother replied "You must mean my son-in-law" revering to my sister and her husband. There was much confusion but finally all the facts were sorted out.
The next time I had a hard breakup and went again to the House of Unconditional Love and Support the first thing I said was "You better not be expecting any guests in the next couple of hours". It has become a wonderful little thing.
This leads me to wonder what our films will be like in that wonderful future where being gay isn't something that creates such incredible friction between the two groups (gay/straight). Thankfully my relationship with my parents around my gender preference has seldom been an issue and when it has it was generally more an issue for me then for them. It has also created a few very funny moments in our lives.
A few years ago, at the end of my marriage, I went to my parents house, frequently where I go when I need shoulders to cry on. When I arrived to cry about love lost I was informed that they were expecting some out of town guests at some point that afternoon. We pasted the time with me railing against an unjust and crazy world and my parents were as supportive as ever. The phone rang and their visitors were double checking directions and were just a few blocks away. Thankfully I had moved past the zenith of the cathartic experience I needed them for and quickly moved into supporting the Host by getting hor'dourves and drinks ready for the soon to arrive guests.
When they arrived I made the proper chit chat to make them feel welcome and buy my mother a bit more time in the kitchen. One of the guests must have noticed my wedding ring, I had yet to remove it because it had only been a few days and although I was emotionally done just hadn't taken the ring off. I was a little shocked and lost for words when asked about my wife. ACK! Incorrect assumption and a topic I was not about to go into the status of things. I don't recall exactly what I said but did nothing to correct their misunderstanding. This was also my queue to leave. I observed the proper social etiquette and departed for my home.
Over lunch, if only I had stayed, one of the guests ask my mother about her daughter-in-law. Clearly I had not provided enough information. : ) To which my mother replied "You must mean my son-in-law" revering to my sister and her husband. There was much confusion but finally all the facts were sorted out.
The next time I had a hard breakup and went again to the House of Unconditional Love and Support the first thing I said was "You better not be expecting any guests in the next couple of hours". It has become a wonderful little thing.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Getting older
I've never really had an issue with my age, other then not being about to drink legally before 21. I don't mind getting older even with my body not being what it use to be just a few years ago. I even appreciate the insights into life that comes with the experience of living. This is not to say I don't have some issues around getting older.
I think my biggest issue around getting older is that I don't want to be "old" alone. I am sure I will still have my friends, I have been unable to alienate them this far. I look at my parents and see two people that not only have shared most of their lives together but are also truly enjoying retirement and their "golden years" together. I would love for my retired life to be spent with, caring for and being cared by, that special someone.
I suspect part of this fear is my new found freedom from my last relationship and partly from my proximity to the big Four Oh.
I guess I will avoid thinking about this issue by returning to work.
I think my biggest issue around getting older is that I don't want to be "old" alone. I am sure I will still have my friends, I have been unable to alienate them this far. I look at my parents and see two people that not only have shared most of their lives together but are also truly enjoying retirement and their "golden years" together. I would love for my retired life to be spent with, caring for and being cared by, that special someone.
I suspect part of this fear is my new found freedom from my last relationship and partly from my proximity to the big Four Oh.
I guess I will avoid thinking about this issue by returning to work.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Same Blogger, new location
As many of you have found out people could not leave comments on my MySpace blog without becoming a MySpace member. That's just no good so I have moved the blog here where you can leave comments without going through a signup process! My hope is that this will mean more comments. : )
For new readers, if you would like to view pre-blogger posts visit:
http://blog.myspace.com/lcdseattle
For new readers, if you would like to view pre-blogger posts visit:
http://blog.myspace.com/lcdseattle
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